By John-Daniel Armstrong, NUS-USI Welfare Officer
In March of 2017, I hit an all-time low point in my life, with little hope for the future, about to make the worst decision of my life, I attempted suicide.
It wasn’t a complete shock to me that I ended up in that position, because I’d been left bottling up my emotions for years, never talking to anyone, never going to get help, instead finding ways to cope without seeking a professional.
This wasn’t a spur of the moment incident; it had taken years of self-neglect to reach that point. It began with ‘I don’t want to get out of bed today, but if I do, I can go for a pint after class’, as a means of coping.
This led me towards hopelessness, I started to drift away from friends spending more time in my room playing games, and rarely eating.
What got me back up from rock bottom was that I talked. A simple conversation about nothing related to how I was feeling with someone I trusted was enough for me to see that there was hope.
Having been through this, there is hope, things do get better, and it you will become a stronger person as a result, it has been a difficult journey, with several setbacks along the way. I quit drinking in April 2017, and have stayed sober ever since, minus a few minor slips here and there.
Since I first reached out to someone, I felt as though there was a weight lifted off my shoulders, and for the first time in a long time that there was some hope. It hasn’t been a complete recovery though, I still get days that I want to stay in bed, but I still keep on going, getting up and facing the day and awaiting new challenges that await me.